APRIL 04, 2007
Ladies and gentlemen, meet the kidney stones! Yep, the kidney stone venture I started whining about over a month ago is finally over. I passed not one, but two kidney stones today (pictured above, next to a penny), and imagine my surprise over the arrival of twins. I've never had two at the same time before, but this does explain why I've been such a cranky bastard the last month.
The stones may be small, but they're hard as rocks and often very jagged, like the larger of the two I passed today. All those pointy protrusions you see on it are razor sharp, and that's what causes stones to be so painful and to sometimes be slow or even get stuck. It's like a rock with needles and razors sticking out of it and, probably needless to say, having that tear through your system and having to pee it out isn't a lot of fun. Hell much better describes it.
But nature does offer you a reward for enduring the pain, and that reward is the overwhelming sense of absolute euphoria you feel when you finally pass a stone (or two). When something has been causing you intense pain for weeks and then you're suddenly free of it, the joy and relief is intense beyond words. That and your body seems to know that the ordeal is over and heaves its sigh of relief by sending out a flood of chemicals that totally relaxes your muscles, washes away the stress, and makes you feel blissfully sleepy and content.
And that's how I'm feeling tonight: jubilant, relieved, sleepy, and content. In fact, I'm feeling so damn good that I'm experiencing the strange sensation of actually looking forward to tomorrow. So, in a peculiar way, maybe the kidney stones weren't entirely a bad thing because this is the first time in months that life has seemed good, even grin-worthy. And, oh, how I'm smiling tonight!
The moon is shining in the sky, reminding me of so many other nights, when my eyes had been so red I'd been mistaken for dead, but not tonight... dM
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